May 29, 2006

LEARNING GERMAN

Before i know this old man from bern, the only word i can say in germany is BERLIN :-)). But after together with him, i feel like i need to learn this languange. Why? I duno .. 'vielleicht da ich liebe ihm'.

For a begginer, i think im not too bad. I understand some words, but the problem is, i duno bout the pronounciation. But let me tell u my new fav words : Ich liebe dich. So, is there any comments?

tschuss.

May 26, 2006

PERFECT DAY

WEDNESDAY -- My old man always bussy, but yesterday he finnaly have time to go running with me along the beach. Its great!!!. After, we play badminton till 10 then went to the new restaurant for dinner.

We move to Miguel house (Spanish RC) for half an hour to meet some friend before he drop me home. But we do have appointment to meet the day after, as it was public holiday.

THURSDAY -- He pick me up at 12.30 for lunch but infact we left at 2, as he had nice conversation with Tom. We went to Indian resta then move to the beach near his office. He play kite with some local children .. he looks so cute at that moment .. but he always looks cute anyway:-p.

At 4, we go to play tennis. Actually he play and i was just sit and watch. At 8 we move to another court to play badminton .. my day was perfect. Its great. Thx my lovely old man .. Thx 4 having time for me.

May 24, 2006

ROCK ON MEDAN

FRIDAY -- Had a crazy b'day party at 'SOCCER' with Adrian (Caritas), Wuun (Maltezer), Irine (UN), Alex1, Alex2, Quantine, Frederich (Solidarites), Miguel (Spanish RC), Mia (Danish RC) after big dinner at Sushi Tai. Its fun to see everybody drunken n 'jackpot'.

Actually it was farewell party also for Alex1 and Quantine as they will leave the day after. The gangs are reduce each months:-(

SATURDAY -- Went for interview at Heifer Int .. then back to TIARA to have some more rest as i sleep very late n woke up very early today. Went to the airport at 300 to dropped Quantine and Alex1. .. Bye guys .. take care .. see you again in another time.

Hang out to Sun Plaza for small shopping then have a dinner at steak house (i dont remember the name) and end up on 'RETRO'.

SUNDAY -- Went to Medan Plaza for big shopping (i bought new jeans and shoes:-P) after having lunch at the dimsum place, then jump to Sun Plaza to watch 'DA VINCI CODE' but unfortunnaly we got no ticket. So we just sitting and telling gossip on Exelsso, then move to Johny Andrean Salon to cut Adrian's hair, then move again to Surf Shop and finnaly we landed on Starbucks.

We going home at 800 and have deal to play pool at 900, but its canceled as everybody seem so tired n just wanna stay in their hotel room.

MONDAY -- The party is over and gotta pack all the stuff to fly back to Meulaboh. After the cold and rough flight, we arrived home at 3. Thx guys for the wonderfull time in Medan ..

May 19, 2006

IM GETTING OLD

Hi my Lord God,
How are u .. me fine here, still alive and getting old:-p. Sorry i cant visit u as often as before, im too bussy with own life .. not like a good girl huh?

Hey i believe u know it was my b'day .. so wanna say thx for good and bad times, thx for all the nice friends i have, thx for sending me a cute old man which i adore very much .. just thx for everything.

I wont asking lot of things, i just want u to give me strength to faced all the things laid in front of me. Again, thx for trusting me to step on my 27th.

May 17, 2006

A PERFECT MAN FROM BERN (?)

I duno what this old man has done to me, all i know is im so in love with him .. So far, everything just perfect.

He always surprised me with something great, just like invite me to have dinner with his parents when they come to visit him.

The second is he bought me a red and sexy nite dress, which almost make me got heart attack. Again today, he give another shoot. I receive a nice and lovely email from his parents and im totally sure that he is 'the man behind the line'.

U're the best .. im so lucky to have u ..

(Ich hab dich lieb bis zum Mond)

May 15, 2006

IF ...

If u want to tell ur story and need someone to talk to,
Just call me and i'll be there for u.

If u feel upset and need shoulder to cry on,
Just call me and i'll be there to dry ur tears.

If u feel happy,
Just call me and i'll come to see u smile.

But,
If one day u call me and im not answered,
Come and find me .. cos i might need u.

May 12, 2006

THE PRAYER

My Dear Lord ..
If he made for me,
Give us changes to be together.

If he not made for me,
Then change the destiny and let him be with me.

But if he really not made for me, make sure that he not made for any other girl also. As i love him so much.
THX

There is a time when i feel jealous with many other girls, cos they have such a perfect life, lovely family, nice friends .. seems God make everything easy for them.

Then i realize, if i was born in a kind of normal family .. i wont be here now, cos maybe i'll be in some other place, doing my master or just do the normal job.

I know that if i grow up with love, protection and guidelines .. i wont be as tough as now (did i?), i'll just grown become spoiled girl.

I feel that if God make everything easy for me .. i wont have crazy experiences to cheers up my days and my life will be so boring.

So, for a man called dad and a woman called mom .. thx for make me as a stubborn and independent girl.

For God .. thx for all the hard and good time, i know u always have better plan in every of my failures.

May 8, 2006

TIRED

Pheww .. last week was the most tough week ever. So damn tired after Quantine b'day party @ maltezer (till 12), movie nite @ steffy (till 3), IRC party (till 4), another movie nite @ solidarities (till 1).

Will have my own party in the next 2 weeks in Medan, im getting old:( .. but everybody does. Happy b'day to Alfie (world vision,26), Rita (kapanlagi.com,27), Adnan (melbourne,32), Sonita (?) .. Love u and miss u guys!

May 4, 2006

STILL GOOD ENOUGH

After Islamic Relief, MercyCorps, ADRA Indonesia (which is now be my shelter), British Red Cross, International Education, Acted, Cordaid, Caritas .. today i got another call from Heifer Indonesia.

This old man from Bern always asking, is this the job i really want? So far, i never able to answer it, cos i have no idea .. im lost on my own life.

All i know is just, i wanna do the best in my field. For the rescent time, job is not everything. Im not here for money, not for fun or so .. Im here just for my social status. I wanna show that im as best as the other. And so far i think im good enough .. or still good enough.

May 1, 2006

DEAL WITH IT OR ... QUIT!!!

Since i come here, most of the time, i feel like alone in the crowded, and it make me sick. Lost, empty and the worse is im often feel like in the middle of nowhere (even when im in a party).

Im longing for my previous life, the moments when im laughing arround, always make fun of everything, be the most 'mad' girl ever, no burden at all .. but this is life, like or dislike .. the only option is deal with it or just .. quit!